Maybe

Maybe being lonely isn't a boon . I am like this. Being lonely gives me a sense of empathy for people who are lonely and sad. I feel connected to them . Maybe that is what my life is all about . Helping those people in need. I hope I have enough strength for that.  

Optimism Vs Pessimism

What should I do? 
On one side I have all these troubles.  Whenever I venture on something new, I wish that after this,  I will be a new man. I will be happy. But the ball goes round back.
So I guess I am pessimistic towards future. 
But good things have happened too. Really unexpected things. I guess all of my life's blessing came wrapped in a surprise.  Anyway,  I have read that all the great people's were optimistic.  They didn't gloom over bygone days.  they knew better things were coming.  Well that's an interesting thought.

It may not be good things all the way and happily ever after. But good things will come.